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     God took away from me last year brought home with him my dear theart but gave me a new one.How blessed i am for giving me 2 special human beings  in my life. They are both wonderful, amazing and adorable beyond compare. I really can`t forget how good our GOD was as He was with me on my darkest moment. Losing someone i considered my life, my jewel,my treasure, my almost everything was really devastating. My world collapsed for awhile but because of my strong faith with our Lord He was with me and sustained me on my ordeal. I just hang on to prayers and that was my therapy with my severe loneliness.With that painful event in my life I began to give again my full trust with the Lord and  asked HIm to take control of my life. I was really helpless! I came to a point where i just wanted to sleep and not to wake up again. The pain was really extreme that i dont want to face life anymore. I really can`t describe that misery and only people who have gone through the same ordeal with me can tell. I went to counselling etc. and for four months since  he passed away there was no single day that i didn`t cry. I was still hoping that one day, He will walk in  our door hug me kiss me and that things were not really happening. That i was just  having a nightmare dreaming and that i will wake up still beside him. It was not really easy what i`ve gone through but as they say THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON. How i wish i could rewind events in my life and cut the painful ones but i couldnt. I realized we could make our miseries turned into a triumph. It`s a doorway for a new beginning and a new hope. I did not understand before but as days passed by God is slowly revealing it to me.  I still miss my theart very much but it`s not that heavy in my heart anymore. He still and will always have a very special place in my heart. HIs memories will always be my treasure in life and i will go on now with life bringing with me all his wonderful good memories. My theart will always be in my journey now as i gained him my big angel. I will now go on with life with a new life, new hope and a new dream. I am blessed to have my new husband  chris with me for my  new journey. He told me that he will continue the love that was just being disrupted though it did not end and promise to love and care for me forever. I hope and pray that God will continue to be with us always making us stronger as we start together a new life. GOD IS REALLY GOOD!

It`s hard when you were knocked down to the ground helplessly and unexpectedly. It`s not easy to stand up and beat the odd. Some insensitive people try to push you, pressure and tell you to do something they themselves don`t even understand as they haven`t even been in the same kind of situation. It`s easy for them to say but do they really know your agony, your pain? I had one elderly woman by the name of kate who really comforted me and gave me a real advice and real vision of what  to expect.I  can`t forget her though she is not with us anymore her piece of advice is still vividly intact in my mind and soul. If only i can speak to her now I want to thank her for that sincere piece of encouragement. Now….. i`m starting to get up, not being affected by what people might say but walk at my own pace! It`s a new day, a new beginning for a person like me that was being crushed to the limit. There`s hope for every struggles in life…… just keep on going….. you will never be alone!