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If there`s just a line to heaven then i would call my theart(ogie) and let him know how he is being missed. It`s been almost 2 years now since he was gone but still i missed him more. I have a new life now with a new love but still cannot deny the fact that i`m still missing my theart. I miss everything about him. We really had wonderful memories together and there was no single day that i  still did not think about him. Life is not really the same without him in my life but what a blessing to have him once and loved me that much. Is he missing me too, i wonder? But i know deep in my heart that he went home with the Lord full of love as  i gave him and let him feel the so called genuine and true love. I remember him thanking me always for the love i was giving him. There is no doubt in my heart that we were meant for each other even though just a short period of time only. It was a short time living together but  a quality time. We had cherished every moments of our time together. Theart, I thank you for the love for the so much love that you have given me. It was really such a PAMBIHIRANG pagmamahal.  You make me smile everytime i think about you. I was very young when i`ve learned to love you and since then that love grew stronger and stronger. I felt devastated when you left me but on the other hand I`ve learned later to accept and let you go as i felt your time was up and God was calling you home. You had enough theart and you deserve to go and have a rest with our Creator. Life was not that easy for what you have gone through in life but because of our LOVE life was worth living for. If there is just a line to heaven i want you to know that you are still in my heart. Yes, i still cry longing for your love and presence. You were my stronghold and my  bodyguard. I felt very secure knowing you were there for me to protect and care for me. How i wish it is possible to call you from here. Life will never be the same but i will give a try  with the so called CHANGE. I know it will not be easy but my babe (Chris) is helping me a lot with my transition. He is very supportive and very understanding with my healing recovery! It`s not the same but I hope God will help me see HIS plan and help me get through with it. It`s not really easy but I`m trusting God as HIS will prevails. THANKS FOR LOVING ME SO MUCH THEART……YOU`VE REALLY MADE ME A STRONGER PERSON! I will surely call you every minute every second if there is just a line to heaven…. i know it will be expensive per minute but it`s worth the price….. I miss you!

CHRISTMAS ISN`T ABOUT THOSE GIFTS THAT YOU HAVE UNDER YOUR TREE RIGHT NOW. ALL OF THOSE THINGS WILL BE GONE ONE DAY. ALL THAT WE LEFT AFTER LIFE IS THE HUMAN SOUL AND THAT WILL LIVE FOREVER. WE WILL PUT SO MUCH STOCK IN WHAT WE HAVE, BUT THIS IS ALL GOING TO PASS AWAY.

LIFE IS ABOUT WHAT HAPPENS BEYOND THE GRAVE. LIFE IS ABOUT KNOWING THE GOD WHO MADE YOU AND WHO GAVE YOU THE GREATEST GIFT YOU WILL EVER RECEIVE.(PASTOR GREG LAURIE)

In God`s plan every life is long enough and every death is timely. And though you and I might wish for a longer life. God knows better. And… this is important…. though you and i may wish a longer life for our loved ones, they don`t. Ironically, the first to accept God`s decision of death is the one who dies. While we are shaking heads in disbelief, they are lifting hands in worship. While we are mourning at a grave, they are marveling in heaven. While we are questioning God, they are praising God.

People have the misconception that to live life to  its fullest for them is to go merry, drink, satisfy themselves, enjoy and tomorrow you will die. Where is the essence of life here? Does it really make sense ? Where`s the purpose of our creation? Is that how shallow and meaningless life is.

For me, the passing away of my papang who was just 52, my sister who was just 38 and just recently my husband of just 3 years really woke me up and reminded me that life is really too short. It`s just like  a blink or a twinkle of an eye to realize a love one is gone. Life is really fragile.

I have an article to share its a daily devotion by pastor  Greg Laurie. SO TEACH US TO NUMBER OUR DAYS, THAT WE MAY GAIN A HEART OF WISDOM.(Psalm 90:12). It is hard to explain when someone`s life has been cut short, when someone is relatively young dies.. We expected them to live a much longer life. But who is to say that it was not the appointed time for them to go?Who is to say that it was not the exact length of life that God has preordained for them from the very beginning?

That is why we want to make everyday count. The bible says"Teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of of wisdom"(Psalm90:12). Or to paraphrase. "Lord, help us to realize our lives can end on any day, so let`s use them wisely. We dont know when our day will come.

When God calls home, you are going home. You can live on vitamin C, zinc, and Echinacea. You can drink green tea, and avoid all the toxins you can, but when your number is up, your number is up.

On the other hand, you will be around until God is done with you. You are not going to go before your time. You may or may not be the healthiest person, but you will live to the time that God has appointed for you.

Worring isn`t going to extend our lives. At the sasme time, we are not to take foolish risks and tempt the Lord.

We can be assured that we are here until God is done with us, As the apostle Paul said, "For to me , to live is Christ, and to die is gain"(Philippians 1:20). So let`s make the most of the lives God has given. Lets live life to the fullest.

     God took away from me last year brought home with him my dear theart but gave me a new one.How blessed i am for giving me 2 special human beings  in my life. They are both wonderful, amazing and adorable beyond compare. I really can`t forget how good our GOD was as He was with me on my darkest moment. Losing someone i considered my life, my jewel,my treasure, my almost everything was really devastating. My world collapsed for awhile but because of my strong faith with our Lord He was with me and sustained me on my ordeal. I just hang on to prayers and that was my therapy with my severe loneliness.With that painful event in my life I began to give again my full trust with the Lord and  asked HIm to take control of my life. I was really helpless! I came to a point where i just wanted to sleep and not to wake up again. The pain was really extreme that i dont want to face life anymore. I really can`t describe that misery and only people who have gone through the same ordeal with me can tell. I went to counselling etc. and for four months since  he passed away there was no single day that i didn`t cry. I was still hoping that one day, He will walk in  our door hug me kiss me and that things were not really happening. That i was just  having a nightmare dreaming and that i will wake up still beside him. It was not really easy what i`ve gone through but as they say THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON. How i wish i could rewind events in my life and cut the painful ones but i couldnt. I realized we could make our miseries turned into a triumph. It`s a doorway for a new beginning and a new hope. I did not understand before but as days passed by God is slowly revealing it to me.  I still miss my theart very much but it`s not that heavy in my heart anymore. He still and will always have a very special place in my heart. HIs memories will always be my treasure in life and i will go on now with life bringing with me all his wonderful good memories. My theart will always be in my journey now as i gained him my big angel. I will now go on with life with a new life, new hope and a new dream. I am blessed to have my new husband  chris with me for my  new journey. He told me that he will continue the love that was just being disrupted though it did not end and promise to love and care for me forever. I hope and pray that God will continue to be with us always making us stronger as we start together a new life. GOD IS REALLY GOOD!

It`s hard when you were knocked down to the ground helplessly and unexpectedly. It`s not easy to stand up and beat the odd. Some insensitive people try to push you, pressure and tell you to do something they themselves don`t even understand as they haven`t even been in the same kind of situation. It`s easy for them to say but do they really know your agony, your pain? I had one elderly woman by the name of kate who really comforted me and gave me a real advice and real vision of what  to expect.I  can`t forget her though she is not with us anymore her piece of advice is still vividly intact in my mind and soul. If only i can speak to her now I want to thank her for that sincere piece of encouragement. Now….. i`m starting to get up, not being affected by what people might say but walk at my own pace! It`s a new day, a new beginning for a person like me that was being crushed to the limit. There`s hope for every struggles in life…… just keep on going….. you will never be alone!

Though how hard i try to move on, get back and go with life`s flow still i`m missing half of me, I REALLY MISS YOU THEART. It`s still not easy but i`m trying hard to live the life you`ve wanted and be the person you`ve expected me to be . Things never been the same when you were gone …. i was still waiting for you to walk in at our door and hug you tightly and kiss you! A year had passed but you never came back! I`m still grieving theart. You still have my heart and my soul as you were my life and my soulmate. You were the best thing that happened in my life and i won`t trade that for anything else in the world! But rest now my theart. I will continue to go on with life as i carry with me your good memories! Life was really wonderful having you once in my life as you`ve given me so much love and let me feel the so called "REAL AND TRUE LOVE".  How blessed i was to be loved by someone like you! I still miss terribly all about you and you are making me smile whenever i think all about our happy good times together. I`m trying to move on now though still trying to make one day at a time.God is really good as He`s helping me get through with my ordeal. He is with me in this healing process and giving me hope for tomorrow! Theart, you will always be in my heart forever! i love you!

In our existence happiness is a very subjective factor in one`s life, being happy doesnt defend on achieving what you want, but the best of what is given. Life isn`t fair, it never was.The only thing that can make us completely happy is CONTENTMENT. Be contented with what you have, but be sure aim high and nver stop believing you can do better everytime…

Love is not finding the right person but creating the right relationship, it`s not how much you love in the beginning but how much you build love till the end.